FOOD RULES🥑
We all set up certain rules we would like to follow but sometimes we don't even realize that our own rules are doing more damage to us, then good. I was following a lot of rules during my ED and in my recovery and I still have a few but the most important step was to acknowledge them and change them.
SOME OF MINE FOOD RULES
My biggest food rule was eating at a certain time, certain food.
You can't have that much cereal in the morning you need to save it for your night snack.
I convinced myself that I was doing a good thing, that I was okay. But I was starving myself and restricting the whole day so I can binge at night, I didn't enjoy at all it wasn't enjoyable.
Then I started to have bigger and bigger digestive problems, my stomach didn't hurt in a way of positivity and pleasure because I ate the food I liked. I was bloated the whole time and didn't have the motivation to in the morning because I was so full from the night before, so again I starved myself so I can allow food I craved at a certain time.
If I didn't eat at a certain time I would get so angry, tired and frustrated and I would skip a meal again.
If my meal wasn't planned I would just get so dizzy and frustrated and I would skip again.
If someone doesn't eat what I've told them, again I would freakout.
If I wasn't satisfied after my meal that meant I could overeat at night more.
If I didn't exercise at a certain time.
If I didn't burn enough calories.
If my meal wasn't healthy enough.
If my meal had way more calories than I counted.
If I didn't count every calorie before my meal.
If I would need to go out and eat.
HOW I STOPPED
1. I deleted my calorie counting app
I didn't have this constant calorie pressure on my back and didn't think about numbers in food.
2. I unfollowed fitness influencers
That removed that constant pressure of looking a certain way and exercising until i didn't feel my legs.
3.Open doors
Every time I told my parents I would do yoga I would keep my doors open or ask my sister if she can be in the room with me so I would do only light yoga not cardio or HIIT.
4. Allow my cravings
Eat whatever I want whenever I want, if I want chocolate cereal in the morning I can have them not wait and starve myself the whole day. It took time but it feels so good to eat and enjoy food not restrict and binge all the time. Now my digestive is so much better and I love food I get excited and I'm not that much emotionally connected to it or frustrated if I don't eat at a certain time.
5.Netflix and food
Putting my favorite show or watching crazy YouTube videos while I eat made me forget about my ED thoughts.
6. If it's not healthy I don't care
To me all food is healthy. As long as I'm not starving my body I'm doing good. I want to enjoy and you won't stop me from eating what I like.
7. Be honest and ask for help
I don't want to lie to myself and to my followers about my meals. If I had something I would share it honestly not faking this perfect picture and adding all these things around my plate just to be a good role model. When the truth is I'm still figuring this shit out. And always being honest and telling the truth and asking for help never hurt me.
